11/5/09

What a week so far. We did the big Halloween thing. Sandia had a preschool Halloween party which was a blast but then we learned that Denali's school doesn't have them. Something to do with minority majority and different cultures being spooked by bones etc. Well she was pretty disappointed but we had alot of fun anyways. We carved pumpkins, made candy apples, made cookies, went to the Northway mall to pillage their candy stashes with hoards of other kids. The girls also got to dress up the night before to go to Sean's work party which they love. The girls are always a big hit there. When it came time to go trick or treating in the neighborhood some very good friends surprised us by showing up and walking around with us which made it all the more fun. It was great this year not having any ice to slip on or snow to curse thru, but oh it was still cold and it didn't take to long for Sandia and Elsie to want to go home. So we came home and had hot drinks and talked while the girls got all jacked up on candy and played games. The next day was all getting Sean ready to take off to Albuquerque that night. We did get to go out for awhile alone though which was nice and all to rare. The girls and I have since been sick and now half way through his trip I get the feeling we are going to stay sick for the whole 8 days he's gone. We miss him very much. Denali must say that 10 times a day. At least I have them going to bed earlier and no more movies at bed time. The great thing about his trips is that for me its a time of buckling down and breaking bad habits that have been collected over the year. Its easier to do when there is just one of us here, that way they don't pit us against each other or conspire against us. We are looking forward to our cousins Juniper and Asia coming over for a slumber party on Saturday. We have become quite close to them now and have sleep overs often. Asia and I were very close for awhile as kids and find that we still get along wonderfully and so do our girls and heck we're family. I feel pretty blessed to have some family around like that since the rest of mine is so far away. I miss you guys very much. okay enough.....love for you all!

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Elsie's fab new cut. I'll have to get a better picture than this. At least you can get the idea. I am actually very happy with it.

Denali and her gun. Most people I know are very shocked when I tell them about it, there are some people I flat out won't tell. 5 is and has been a good age to start out. My view on it is that if there are guns in the house ( which...hello, there are) I don't want our kids to be ignorant about them and wind up finding one some day and accidentally firing it. I want them to know the seriousness of it and the things that could result from using one. On the lighter side Denali is dying to shoot a duck. I don't think I was ever dying to shoot anything. She must get it from her father.

Elsie before the hair cut with one of the sunflowers we grew.

Riding bikes

Their favorite new snack jam apple sandwiches.

So hoping that most of you know me well enough that I can say some things that have been eating me up lately. This social status quo stuff. People not thinking your good enough or judging you by what you do or do not have. It has come to my attention recently that some people I know think my house is dirty and small and whatever, and not that they themselves told me, this is all behind the back gossipy fun. I have never been nor will I ever be obsessed with cleaning. There are far more important things in my world to obsess about. For some reason though this really got me down, its a hurdle I can't overcome. We don't make alot of money and don't have the nicest things in the world but you know...our kids are happy and healthy and we are honest hard working people and isn't that whats supposed to matter? I was chewing Sean's ear off about this and he asked me if I really cared what these people think. I guess I do, which sucks. How do I come to terms with it. I don't like having people in my life that make me feel this way, not good enough. I don't like people judging me and my family based on how I keep house or how much money we make. We have 3 kids, every time I turn around its another mess to clean up and if I let myself obsess about it then I miss out on the fun of having the darn kids in the first place. I do the best I can with what I have and I suppose I should just tell everyone else to bite me, but that's not very nice. grin and let it roll off my back right. right. I'm sorry I have dust in my corners and clothes on the floor, my house is small and old but my family is happy and that's what matters to me.

Anyways, its been a beautiful fall here. We have been spending as much time as possible outside and with friends enjoying it all while we can. Love and hugs to you all. Wish me patience and a level head.

school

Life as of late is busy. Crazy busy. Between school, preschool, work etc its non stop go. I will load up some more photos at some point today.
Highlights from the week
~ Saw Denali shoot her pink single shot 22
~ Elsie did a chop job on all her hair
~ The alternator went out in the jeep
Over all pretty good. Lunch babies are crying so I'll write more, better, later.

how we live

Before school



After dropping Denali off



Elsie gets to blow a wish

Denali, Whittier harbor

Elsie and Sandia showing off the face paintings

Sean patrick and his ladies

Elsie, I know its fuzzy but I love this shot of her.

Denali in the park yesterday afternoon

Sandia spying on a bench in Whittier

These are some of my favorite pics from the past few weekends. Its getting to be fall around here so I guess its time to start this up again. I decided on photos for the most part, letting them talk. Anything I have to say you can see in most any picture.