Thursday, October 15, 2009

hmmmm.

Elsie's fab new cut. I'll have to get a better picture than this. At least you can get the idea. I am actually very happy with it.
Denali and her gun. Most people I know are very shocked when I tell them about it, there are some people I flat out won't tell. 5 is and has been a good age to start out. My view on it is that if there are guns in the house ( which...hello, there are) I don't want our kids to be ignorant about them and wind up finding one some day and accidentally firing it. I want them to know the seriousness of it and the things that could result from using one. On the lighter side Denali is dying to shoot a duck. I don't think I was ever dying to shoot anything. She must get it from her father.

Elsie before the hair cut with one of the sunflowers we grew.


Riding bikes



Their favorite new snack jam apple sandwiches.




So hoping that most of you know me well enough that I can say some things that have been eating me up lately. This social status quo stuff. People not thinking your good enough or judging you by what you do or do not have. It has come to my attention recently that some people I know think my house is dirty and small and whatever, and not that they themselves told me, this is all behind the back gossipy fun. I have never been nor will I ever be obsessed with cleaning. There are far more important things in my world to obsess about. For some reason though this really got me down, its a hurdle I can't overcome. We don't make alot of money and don't have the nicest things in the world but you know...our kids are happy and healthy and we are honest hard working people and isn't that whats supposed to matter? I was chewing Sean's ear off about this and he asked me if I really cared what these people think. I guess I do, which sucks. How do I come to terms with it. I don't like having people in my life that make me feel this way, not good enough. I don't like people judging me and my family based on how I keep house or how much money we make. We have 3 kids, every time I turn around its another mess to clean up and if I let myself obsess about it then I miss out on the fun of having the darn kids in the first place. I do the best I can with what I have and I suppose I should just tell everyone else to bite me, but that's not very nice. grin and let it roll off my back right. right. I'm sorry I have dust in my corners and clothes on the floor, my house is small and old but my family is happy and that's what matters to me.
Anyways, its been a beautiful fall here. We have been spending as much time as possible outside and with friends enjoying it all while we can. Love and hugs to you all. Wish me patience and a level head.