a dream i had

When you think about what you want in life ....what is it? What is it?

remembering myself

I write i write i write, i cannot write away the tragic soul, the lover who does not love, the life wished and the one given. I will write us a love song, a wisp of soft air about the ear just in time to still the dying heart. The heart it beats out a path, follows you into the deep gray wind, would burst to flames to guide you, this heart, my heart, I will write us a love song one not sung from a bottle or from the spring air, a love song as a whimper a hearts remembrance of what we once were, a ember trying not to die. My love song for us all my whispers skim the vast waters that lay cold and heavy upon my soul, my water, my captor, my soul, my island, my emptiness, my hearts whisper to two lovers my love song, my sorrow of age and loss, let my tears bleed from me, I am no ocean and I am wilting. my love song, a flower faded to water, crushed to earth I lay bare in my thoughts. The sweet sadness of love has left its marks across my body, coarsed my skin and lined my mouth with brutal reality but I will write us a song that may seek out your soul in the darkness of night where your love for me is still and waiting, past the regret and anger, the grayness of our days and into the shadows of your heart may my song reach. I will write us a song that we may find each other once more. My love for you  a well worn path in the dirt embedded and strong waiting for you.

I realize

Its been a long time since I have felt like posting anything. We have had a hard couple of months and undoubtably thats why I haven't posted anything. This is such a public forum that you feel like you can't really be truthful about how your feeling or go into depth the problems you are having, your bound to upset someone right. Anyway, the sun is shining again , the days are getting longer, projects have been completed and its spring break which means I have my beautiful girls to keep me company. Heaven!!

cooped up

Lots of moms have been telling me lately that their kids have been going absolutley mad house and mine are no exception. Its been so cold out lately and dark so they get all up in eachothers grills so to speak. Mine can start fighting the second they wake up about the most mindless @#$!. Its a good thing that they are so cute and otherwise really good kids. Its that fun sibling thing WI guess. Outside of that things are busy and wonderful. I have a ring to make for a performance artist in Manhatten and 2 pairs of leather, bead and fur baby booties to make for someone so that is super exciting. The recording studio is uber busy because one of the musical directors of Saturday Night Live is coming on Monday for who knows how long. I have been moving boxes, shifting piles and measuring out wire all week, The man has to re wire the whole studio. Life is going at a crazy pace but seemingly in the right direction. Tomorrow we will go over to Sean's sister's house to have dinner with her family which will be fun and the the rest of the weekend.......who the hell knows!

new year

Wow, it seems like life became obscenely busy, anyone else with me on that? We have had a amazing time this past couple monthes. Sean's mom came up for thanksgiving which was nice. We got to spend alot of good time with his sister's family and have kept it up which has been wonderful!. We made it through the christmas haze, spent new years with Asia, Jon, juniper, Kelly+Bill and Sara. We just had alittle buffet of food and then we all went out and had a fire. This was the first yr I can remember where fireworks have been legal in city limits and let me tell you everyone took full advantage of it. We just had some sparklers but boy did all those girls LOVE it. We also chopped up th xmas tree and threw it in the fire which is so much fun to see, the girls all took turns throwing peices of it into the fire. Our friend Aaron also came over with his 3 kids. It was just the best time. I hope everyone else had fun too. I have cut down my days at the studio to tuedays and thursdays which makes me much happier. I feel like I'm nolonger drowning when I get home under a pile of housework yet to be done. Over all things are headed in the right direction I believe, we are gaining daylight, loving life, getting closer with family and not in a complete state of maonetary panic so what more can you ask for. Heres a few misc. photos for you all in no order at all cause I'm lazy.

Big big love